Skyrim, Minecraft, Puppies, and Ranting

I started playing Skyrim again recently, and I just wanna say. I believe it's the sexiest game to exist. I can play it for hours and never get bored. 

The soundtrack is relaxing. It makes you feel like you're actually in a new world, a new time period. It's beautiful.

The way the game play makes it seem somewhat real. I'd like to have seen more clashing of swords instead of hacking and slashing then drinking potions. 

Daedric armor design is sexy as hell. Dragon bone armor I expected to look better than it did, it was a bit of a let down.

Sometimes I get so in to this game, I take jobs and roles as such. Like. I'll just chop wood for days at Anga's mill for gold pieces. Or I'll go mining around the world for a while and seel the ore. Or go around with a bow and some steel arrows and be a hunter. The possibilities of what you can do are endless, all on a beautiful and realistic landscape. 

And I'm currently working on turning into a nerd and learning skyrim dragon language. 

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I've built the ultimate treehouse in minecraft. Its 3 stories high off a jungle tree, with multiple houses, floating gardens, and shops. It has a system of waterfalls and bridges that lead to endless areas. I'm currently in the middle of building and finishing the library.

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My doggie is amazing and I wish she was immortal but shes not so im sad. 

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So when I'm chatting up online people and they ask me my gender, then ask for a picture, I tell them no. They ask why. I don't look like the gender I am. Then the bombardment of questions comes. "are you trans?" "do you have a penis?" "do you still have your vagina?" "what about your boobs?" "is it weird?" "whats it like being a different gender than what you are?" Well first of all. You asking all these nosyass questions isn't making things any easier. Second, if you really wanna know all this, use google. It's right at your fingertips. I really don't wanna spend my day educating you about something that you can easily access any time you want. 

Being a different gender than what I feel is extremely hard, but not impossible. Nothing ever feels right. ATM I have long hair, I'm getting it cut soon, though. But it doesn't feel right. I feel like it should have always been kept short, but hasn't been kept that way. 

No, I don't have a penis yet. I hope to have one soon, though. Definitely looking forward to being able to pee without taking my pants off and freezing in the mornings. 

Recently my friend Riley, who's now Skyelynn, came out to me and a few others as transgendered. And I'm super proud of her.She's an amazing and super supportive chick about everything. She's one of my best friends c:



Thats all for today, folks ;-;








~Jason

I'm Boring

So I think I have the flu. I've had a fever ranging from 101-102 for the past 2 days. And I feel like I've been run over by a truck. Blaahhh. I constantly feel like I'm gonna throw up, and coughing. So much coughing. Kids, get your flu shots. The flu is fucking horrible. 




My doggie has a weird growth on her snout. My dad was looking at it and moving the fur around it, and it just popped off and started bleeding. So we'll have to take her to the vet to get that checked out. My dad also thinks she might have a brain tumor. And I'm just like. :CCCCC I really don't want that to be true. Cause I love her. like. alot. I'm gonna go cry now. bye ;-;



~Jason

Happy 2 Years, Babe

Today was my girlfriend's and I's 2 year anniversary. And I have something to say.

Babe, 
You are amazing, radiant, beautiful, kind, stunning, intelligent, caring, funny, adorable, short, supportive, and just absolutely perfect. You are for sure the person I want to spend my life with, the person I want to raise kids with, the person I want to wake up every morning to, and the person I want to hug and snuggle when I'm upset. I can barely put in to words how amazing you are, and I can't put in to words how much I love you. Its this insane amount, and its always growing. 

I love you twice as much as I did yesterday, but only half as much as I will tomorrow

Happy two year anniversary, babygirl<3 I'm sure there'll be many more to come.



~Jason

Acceptance, Dogs, 2 Years, College, and Ghosts

Today I met this guy on the internet, completely anonymous and all that through my friends new friendship project. (basically, you join a group without any gender or physical appearance labels and talk to people and get to know the person purely with their personality). I actually wasn't participating in the entire thing, so I had my (male) gender up and my name instead of anonymous, but we got to talking about the subject of transgender because my friend just came out about it. It was extremely interesting talking to him about it, he was completely new to it and he asked me if he could ask questions, and of course I was fine with it. But I was thoroughly surprised that his questions, which should've seemed ignorant, weren't. He and talked very shortly about that subject, but then went on to talk about lucid dreams and deep thinking. 

But I guess what I'm trying to say here is that if you know nothing about transgendered people and would like to know more, but more from personal perspective than articles on the internet, try your best to be like this guy. Be polite about it and try and seem less ignorant than you are. Basically, have common courtesy. (America lacks it, these days) 

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I already know exactly what kind of dog I want when I live on my own and can choose the breed. I seriously can't get my sights off a nicely trained German Shepherd. Beautiful dogs, extremely loyal, and seemingly invincible, they'd make the perfect family guard dog. I know it probably wouldn't be best to have him/her around small kids, but I'm hoping I can get it trained well so it would know better than to bite or growl.If I can't get a German Shepherd, I'll get a golden retriever. They'd make perfect snuggle buddies.

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On the 16th, it'll be my girlfriend's and I's 2 year anniversary :3 oh mah lord I love her so much, it's seriously insane. 

For any guys who happen to read this and are like "Damn, I can't get any bitches":

-First of all, they aren't bitches, they are ladies.
-Women aren't your sex objects. I know some girls are dressing slutty and asking to be treated like the corner whore, but have some chivalry
-Treat them like they're your princess/queen. It makes all the difference when you stop treating her like she's your hotel and prostitution service. 
-Don't sag your pants.

thats all.

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My plans for college aren't entirely decided yet, but I have an outline. When I graduate highschool when I'm 18, I'm gonna move in with my girlfriend for a year, and just take a year off school and just have a full time job. Living in the new state for that year will also get me residence discount +1. once I'm 20, I'll start college and hopefully be done with my gender transition by about 24-25 if I rush it. It'll make starting a career easier. My life is confused :c

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Call of Duty Ghosts is awesome k. I played it for 4 hours straight today while dealing with prepubecent boys on Xbox live. The second part isn't exactly my cup of tea, but its fun to troll. 

Dat L115 with chrome barrel with thermal sight is boss. I tear up stonehaven and stormfront with it, along with the honey badger at times. And honestly, whats the difference between quick scoping and hard scoping? I'm so confused to be honest. 



~Jason

Dogs, Sisters, Suspenseful Stories, and Lesbian Adorableness!

I just got back from my weekend up in the mountains and all that fun stuff. On our way driving home, we stopped at this amazing smokehouse. I don't remember what its called, but they had buffalo jerky, elk jerky, beef jerky, turkey jerky, you name it, and it all tasted amazing. While we were there, we bought a smoked pigs ear for my dog. It was just simple smoked, nothing special. My dog fucking loves the shit out of it, and my sister is terrified and grossed out by it. So given the circumstances, I rigged up this thing. I tied a pole to the sledding harness we have for my dog and made it so I could tie the pigs ear to it and have it dangle a foot in front of my dog's face. 

My dog is just trotting around, trying to catch her treat, when my sister goes by. She freaks out and starts running. Like, zombie apocalypse type running. My dog sits there like, this must be a game, and chases after her. So we have a little hilarious scenario here. My sister running like there's no tomorrow, the pigs ear maybe a foot behind her, and my dog another foot behind. My dog catches up to her and the ear touches my sister in the arm and she freaks out, yelling things like "EW EW EW EW GET THAT AWAY EWWWWWW" So I walk up so calmly, take the ear off the string and pole set up, tie it to my sister's head like its her own ear, and walk away. She loses her shit, rips it off, and runs into her room and doesn't speak to me the rest of the day. That made my day right there.

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I dug out an old story my friend Dana wrote for English class in 7th grade. And I swear to god she's gonna end up writing horror stories for a living. I just copied it into a google doc a half hour ago. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1DaQAtbBJs0ya03yeGp2X83NTN7xRJjXKoG7LbNtju1U/edit?usp=sharing Seriously read it. Its one of her best stories. 

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I had a bit of a mini freak out earlier. I was at dinner, with my family, and a wild lesbian couple appears. They sit down a few tables away, and immediately snuggle up to eachother. Like. They looked so happy and comfortable together. If they weren't what seemed like they were making jokes or telling the other they loved them, they were talking to the waitress, who I think was hitting on both of them, but that's just my opinion. 

These two were just so in to eachother. They were constantly kissing, hugging, laughing, and just having a good time. And it was absolutely adorable. The people sitting at the table behind us were making comments such as: "Jeez, they should at least get a room, if not stop that sinful crap right now" And that just pissed me off so much. I wanted to say something, but I was with my parents, and that wouldn't go over well. 

I really think we should encourage lesbian and gay couples to be comfortable in public, and encourage equal treatment between gay and straight couples. Because this is seriously not cool. Why can't they be happy together and show a little PDA just like you can? It isn't right to judge people by sexuality and things like that. If you're a man and you want to kiss your wife in public, fine. If you're a woman, and want to kiss your husband in public, fine. If you're a man, and want to kiss your husband in public, fine. If your're a woman and you want to kiss your wife in public, fine. Just let it go. Let people be who they feel they are. You aren't god, asshole. Get over yourself.

~Rant over XD





~Jason 

Snowboard Boots, Ice Cold Walks, and Mario Hoops Rage + DDG

Today was fun as hell. Since I finally finished my schoolwork and my midterms, we left early today to go up to a town in the Sierras. And since ski and snowboarding season is coming up, I'm getting custom snowboard boots fitted to me, plus money for a 4 day lift ticket at Badger Pass. I have to rent out a board until I save enough money to get one my size though. I need one roughly 62-65 inches, and the one I have is about 51. Its gonna be held on to for my sister or for my future kids or whatever. Its a nice board from Rome. 

Also, just, I love this town. Its not too big, its not too small, and they have a snowboarding team for the highschool. Like. How much better can this get? It just sucks that I don't live here. But, we ain't millionaires. And if we were, we'd have been here a long time ago. 

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It's slowly getting colder outside and I'm in love with it. I love having to throw on a jacket or coat before I go outside, and then coming back with a cold nose. And I'm sure my husky loves it, too. When it starts snowing near where we live, snowball wars shall commence >:D.

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I love and hate Mario Hoops 3on3 for ds. I love playing it, but it frustrates me to no damned end. I started the Star Tourney 3 years ago, I'm on the last level, and I. Can't. Fucking. Beat it. No matter how much I practice, or how much I try, its either I crash and burn all the way through, or I'm leading by one score, and the other team pulls up a power shot. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, MAN. This is how my ds lite got broken. I don't think its gonna well. Just fuck my mario hoops career and throw me in a box. 

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So I love my girlfriend more than anything in the world, and shes my favorite person. <3 that is all.

~Jason

Fuzzy Handcuffs, Girlfriend, Adventures in Awkward, and Dysphoria

SO my girlfriend and I are gonna have fucking awesome sex lives. She's turned on by rough sex XD when she said that, I was turned on so much oh my god. Like. Long distance sucks for that shit, man. Soon though. Soon. Soon. Soon. Soon. Soon. 

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So today was really weird. I was watching those vines on facebook and stuff, and like, just this one guy was doing this... I don't even know how to explain. But it was hilarious. And also, this awkward guy kept coming up our driveway, sniffing our fence, then walking away. Then doing that again. Like. What the hell just happened there? He looked like he jumped out of duck dynasty.

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So I swear to god, my voice is getting deeper. I haven't been taking hormones for gender reassignment processes, but I swear. Its slowly getting deeper on its own. I actually love it, its helping with dysphoria in other things and slowly making it easier to deal with how long I have to wait until I can actually officially start HRT and top and bottom surgeries. 

I am starting to get worse with dysphoria though. I think its affecting my moods and my relationship with my girlfriend and friends. Especially during that special time of month. It's hard to deal with it. It's always been hard, it always felt wrong, but ever since I stopped pushing down the feeling "I should be male, not female", it's gotten worse. The feeling of having to accept something part of you that you feel shouldn't be there, is horrible. But thanks to my girlfriend, I've been better about it. She's so supportive about everything ;-; I'm so fucking glad I have her.
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DDG (Daily Dose of Girlfriend)

She's absolutely perfect, amazing, beautiful, adorable, kind, lovable, sweet, caring, and funny. She always makes my day and says cute adorable things to pick me up when I'm down. She's the perfect person and I never want to lose her. Ever. Just thinking about that makes me sad ;_; 



~Jason